She was a vendor, then a consultant, then a woman from a client dinner I had supposedly misunderstood.
Ethan had an explanation for every late night and every locked screen.
I had a counterargument for every instinct I kept swallowing.
We had been together since I was twenty-four.
I knew the rhythm of his footsteps in a hallway, the shape of his moods, the exact silence he used when he wanted me to doubt myself.
When women have loved a man long enough, they can mistake pattern recognition for paranoia.
I had done it for months.
Sitting there in that conference room, looking at his mistress and their child, I realized denial has a body count too.
It just tends to be measured in pieces of yourself.
Margaret and I had not started out close.