She called it discipline.
‘Some women need structure,’ she once told me over tea in my own kitchen, looking at my bruised wrist as if it were an unpleasant stain on the china.
‘And you’re fortunate Julian has the patience for it.
Especially now that you’re carrying his heir.’
Fragile was her favorite word for me.
Fragile, emotional, anxious, unwell.
Julian repeated those words so often that other people began handing them back to me like facts.
In time, I almost did too.
Almost.
Before Julian, I had been a senior forensic accountant.
I built cases out of invoices, metadata, timestamps, missing cents, and people who thought charm could outrun arithmetic.
Julian had targeted that part of me carefully.
First he admired my mind.
Then he mocked it.
Then he explained to everyone that my anxiety had become too severe for real work.